i am blogging once again not because i wanna blog.. just because i wanna type it out and i dont want it too public.. facebook is way to public.. making it more personal now since i dun believe anyone is reading my blog now..



i totally understand why i am a wild boar like you described me as. but silly me just wanna hear from me, but instead of telling me you chose to tell me that you forgot about it. i just feel that you are not forgetting anything abt it.. but instead you are.. choosing not to hurt me. right?



ok what i did moments ago is totally an act-of-a-wild-boar. but i am just trying to put something striaght to you that.. it means more than what you think that i am thinking. like seriously.

and i also know i am totally running away from you everything sucha thing happens. sorry. i really want everything to be just as simple as it seems. i know its difficult for you and i am making things difficult for you. but you could feel so much better just by thinking simple could that be ever so difficult for anyone?

has many many to blog about.. but the blogger has something wrong few days ago that makes me no feel to blog..

anyway.. What have i done. argh.. its even kind of hard to pen down my thoughts now. in fact, i m not so certain of wad i m actually thinking about. :(

i tried to change. i learned to smile and laugh more. but at the same time my surroundings gets darker and darker. more and more dull. quieter and quieter. seems like things just don't go the way it should huh..

OOPG lab test tmr..

and i finished it today. for you with sincerity.. but aye.. nevermind.

i will blog out tmr.. HOPEFULLY.. had a very very interesting weekends.. SERIOUSLY

ok eff blogger.. i dont know what's happening to it.. infact it should be what's happening to my life..

well i guess screwing up my life is kind of like a common thing huh.. on grading day itself.. and blah blah blah..

i have so much to blog.. but i guess i m just always too late for everything.. i wanted to say so much.. but then again i think.. "is it gonna change anything? is it even going to help?"

alright anyway.. it seems like i just have a whole chuck of holidays free now.. i have so much planned, so much to do, so much to say.. but it seems to me that i m totally free right now.. ok.. i should be happy that now i can give it all in for ece society..

to say about giving all out brings me to Annual General Meeting this coming thursday.. i have GAVE UP so much.. gave up so much of my and ours idea just due to time and my lack of knowledge. giving up is totally fine with me.. but losing.... is another thing.

alongside. i think i lost the reasons for me to touch my phone and make a text message. i think i lost the reasons for staying up late. i think i lost the reasons for going around searching for places..

i guess this is just parts and parcels of alex life which is meant to be screwed up..

how i smiled when the song came up on the radio.

then again. how helpless to wake up from dreams.

how tired to be packed with things to do throughout the day and night.

and how depressing it is to gain so much time out of a sudden when i needed more just moments ago.

just how i smiled when the phone rings out of a sudden. and wasn't me who waited for it to ring. but then just how it turns out to be..

Thing about love, is I never saw it coming
It kinda crept up And took me by surprise
And now there's a voice inside my heart that's got me wondering
Is this true? I wanna hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Get just a litter louder
Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love
Say it again

The thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there's no end in sight
The thing about me is that I really wanna let you open the door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Get just a litter louder
Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love

And it feels like it's the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love

Say it again
Say it again
Say it again

WTF is everything going the WRONG WAY! FUCK IT LA!

stupid blogger aint giving me a chance to post a blog properly and i got no idea whats wrong.. fuck it.

Saturday 18 July.

went out with the 1E1s to yuki yaki.. i didnt have any photos cause all with jason..

anyway.. yuki yaki is like totally un-nice.. their ice-cream makes me wanna puke.. like seriously.. i totally prefer seoul garden considering its environment food and price! OWNED

anyway.. we went to play the machines that catches the toys.. and kelly got a frog.. which is like. !@#$ lols! ok i will totally not spend any money on it.. haha unless some other circumstances laaa~~

then over to esplanade as we realise theres a ndp rehearsal.. and decided to stay back for fireworks.. and they did this stupid video.


then had a heart to heart talk with weiquan and mich.. and i totally feel like shit.. wha! like stupid only.. :( well.. about the contents.. it will be better if it remains a secret.. :D

then went home.. i missed my train and thinking that i would have to take cab and realised that actually theres still bus HOME! like lucky me. :D

Today,

a eff-ed up day.. like totally effed up.. i sincerely apologize to those that i vent my anger on... but yeah.. i totally dun wanna talk about what happened today.. its gonna like piss me off to the maximum.. really..

but anyway.. i slept till like only just now and was glad that my dream was good.. hias.. alex should just kill himself and die..

still have like agm video undone. i m gonna be so dead now..

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so wow right.. i m also WOW-ed by it too.. whats more to come.. it seems like i am keeping a collections of all this warning letter.. ARGH. but please tell me theres no more of such irritating mails coming in already..

wha screwed up man.. OOPG test is coming up again.. like on 21st and i have YET to study.. she doesnt freaking hell wanna give back our paper! how to STUDY! :( no way i gonna fail it like AGAIN!

anyway.. grading is coming up.. AGAIN! belt grading for me this time seems fine.. lets hope that my body dun screw me up that day.. and please i m still hoping for doubles..

and.. wha.. Annual General Meeting still have many stuffs left undone.. like the Presentation. my formal wear. brochure.. things are like already too LATE! no time!! omg.. STRESSED UP!

and and.. oh man.. Flash Applications homework.. freaking hell.. its gonna drain hours from me again..

man i just need a break.. like holidays that i could like not think of ANYTHING and sleep! i feel so like.. a pest to you.. i dont feel that you are thinking the same way as i do.. it just keeps me uncertain all the time and it totally suck..